It's only two weeks earlier - to March 8 - but it is sooner than originally thought. Part of me is excited to get going already. Part of me is terrified.
This is a big surgery. Not only will my chest be cut, but my butt, too. How will I possibly get comfortable enough to sit - much less sleep - until everything heals? I will also be unable to run/lift/train in karate for a month or longer, which is not cool. It will be really hard to go from working out six days a week to doing, well, nothing. At least with my other reconstruction surgeries, I could walk or bike/use my lower body after two weeks or so. This time, I don't think I'll have that option.
In the grand scheme of things, not being able to work out or a while probably shouldn't be a big deal, but to me it is. Training - including doing very physical things in karate that I'd never even attempted before - was the one constant during treatment and reconstruction. Whether I had expanders, no boobs, one boob or whatever, I was always able to work out. I'm already mourning the inability to do that and I'm still six weeks away from that becoming a reality.
But onward, ho...
3 comments:
I know what you mean. Working out every day (i'm a runner and biker) got me through law school, and chemo. The hardest thing is the enforced slow down after surger(ies).
I try to look at it this way: sometimes, when you take time off from working out, your body has time to process what it has learned, and you come back with better technique than you had before. I used to be a pro dancer and i always found that, coming back after an injury or vacation resulted in a big leap in my technical ability (at a sacrifice of aerobic capacity of course!).
so, hang in there!
I'm hanging. I just decided to move the surgery back to May - after my promotions for brown belt. I'm sure my techniques would be blazing after so long a break, but I also think I'd get my hiney handed to me on a plate if I try round-robin sparring after being off for that long. I'd be sucking wind - and broken teeth - the entire night...
Think tapering before the big event will give me better technique, too?
Hey Felicia,
I'ts me Cara I like your blog.
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